Failure to Try and
to Keep On
Trying is the One
and Only Real Failure
B. P. Wadia
Mr. B.
P. Wadia
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The following text
is reproduced from the book
“Living the Life”,
by B.P. Wadia, Indian Institute
of World Culture,
Bangalore, 1981, 156 pp., pp. 57-59.
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. . . The fortunate
Is he whose earnest purpose never swerves,
Whose slightest action or inaction serves
The one great aim.
A verse in the Dhammapada
says that no outer device can purify a person “who has not solved his doubts”.
It is no exaggeration, then, for the poet to say that “doubts are traitors”.
People live so grossly centred in the without that
they have no time to attend to the within. Sometimes the without is full of
sensuality of the animal kind; sometimes, of adventure devoid of wickedness;
for many the without is full of the humdrum passing of days and weeks into
months and years; for a few that without is absorption in outer ceremonialism
of penance and prayer and even asceticism, with many fasts and no festivals.
But always it is preoccupation with matters of the mundane spheres.
The newcomer to Theosophy begins in enthusiasm and
with intuitive faith; he becomes a student, then an aspirant, with devotion
endeavouring to learn and to serve; he blossoms into a neophyte. In due course
he is overtaken by weaknesses and the fear of difficulties. Above all he is
lured by the gaiety, the pomp and the power of the world, and he feels that his
life is gliding by, untouched by all that wonder. And then come failures and
frustrations, followed by doubts regarding the present mode of Theosophical
living, a desire for escape or for change of venue. Boredom leads to laziness
as well as discontent and the mischief is done.
“My life is marred; discipline is not for me; I must
change all this. To gain the soul is fine; but to lose the world for it? No.”
We ought to clear our minds about the vital Esoteric
teaching that the arising of doubts in the consciousness of a neophyte, if not
conquered by quiet study and calm reflection, leads to desertion from the field
of battle. Small slips or great sins may occur, but the temptation to commit
them is overcome when the neophyte stands firm and gives battle. Even to
speculate about desertion of Discipline is to strengthen our doubts about the
Wisdom and the Wise Ones, about the Divinity within ourselves, about the true
Altruism by which alone man feels the Peace of the Occult World, sees the Light
of the Hidden Ones, hears the sound of the Spiritual Spheres. Therefore has
doubt been mentioned in the same context as hypocrisy, which is called an
unpardonable sin in Occultism. When one gives up the Fight he begins to forget
the rules of the Discipline of the Righteous Soldier; and in a short while he
becomes careless, scoffs at the Discipline, struggles anyhow and even fails to
see himself as a deserter.
Neophytes talk of their weaknesses but they let go
opportunities to learn and to overcome them. What they are called upon to do is
not to fail, not to be broken, but to remain true to the Way of Discipline, to
be faithful to the very end. The only sin that Occultism condemns is the sin of
desertion. Doubts of the spiritual and higher life ever spring from the form of
sin (papa-purusha) of the personal man. Carnal forces sow seeds of doubt in us,
tempt us to commit follies, goad us on to desert the good, the true and the
beautiful. The temptation to desert does not come to the worldly man, for he
has nothing to be tempted away from. He is free to “enjoy” his carnal
appetites. But the neophyte is tempted to desert the Discipline. What is the
form of this temptation? Carnal forces speak to him and say: “Why be a slave to
the discipline you have accepted? Be free; make your own discipline.” This is
the blackest of delusions.
The duty of the neophyte is to possess a direct ray of
thought and of purpose and to use the overcoming of his weaknesses, small or
big, of body or of mind, for the fulfilment of that purpose and for
intensifying the power of that ray. Says an aphorism:
“Selfishness
will desert you, if you do not desert the Wisdom-Word.”
How encouraging is the instruction:
“. . . Each
failure is success, and each sincere attempt wins its reward in time. The holy
germs that sprout and grow unseen in the disciple’s soul, their stalks wax
strong at each new trial, they bend like reeds but never break, nor can they ever
be lost. But when the hour has struck they blossom forth.”
But where can reward come from if after any failure no
sincere attempt is made? When with some degree of failure the neophyte deserts
and so is broken, is he not lost? H.P.B. has explained in more than one place
the declivity which failure follows, and what this “loss” means. Failure to try
and to keep on trying is the one and only real failure. Can it be turned into a
success? Not until the temptation which enslaved the deserter, by the false
notions of personal freedom, is destroyed; not until the doubts which caused
the desertion are removed. Only then restoration to the Path of Discipline is achieved.
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In September 2016, after a careful analysis of the state of the
esoteric movement worldwide, a group of students decided to form the Independent Lodge of Theosophists,
whose priorities include the building of a better future in the different dimensions
of life.
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